Restless

Why are we here?
What is existence for?
Are we meant to love,
or to wage endless war?

Time is apparently precious,
but I’ve been throwing mine away.
I don’t know who I am.
I don’t know what I’m supposed to say.

There has to be something better.
Earth isn’t where I belong.
I thought I’d have it all figured out by now,
but I was severely proven wrong.

My soul is restless.
It hasn’t slept for weeks.
There’s a hole in my heart that’s odd in shape,
and I think You could be what it needs.

So pluck me from my spot
and put me someplace new.
It doesn’t matter where I go
as long as I’m certain You’ll be there too.

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Prayer

You feel like God has abandoned you,
when in reality He’s always there.
Ask and it will be given to you.
Never underestimate the power of prayer.

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Nowhere to Go

The world is all but a distant memory.
I pray I’m not the only human being left.
War has finally taken our precious gift,
and those violent images are ones I’ll never forget.

I’m sifting through the wreckage,
looking for any kind of message,
but there’s nothing except broken promises
and the faint hope of leverage.

My hands are cold.
My muscles are weak.
The icy winds blow through me,
and I can barely breathe.

It’s horrible being alone.
I wish I could find somewhere to go.
It’s not as if I’m lost.
It’s that I don’t have a place to call home.

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Friend

We haven’t known each other very long,
but it feels like we grew up together.
You always have the right thing to say,
and I hope we can stay friends forever.

You build me up.
You make me smile.
You put the cruelness
of this world on hold,
if only for a little while.

We laugh until we cry.
We talk about our goals.
We’re open about our fears.
We don’t pretend we’re whole.

You mean so much to me.
I’m not sure it’s something
I can sufficiently describe.
Whenever we hang out,
there just isn’t enough time.

This might sound like fiction,
but it couldn’t be more true.
In all my life I’ve never had
a friend as great as you.

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Counting to Ten

One mysterious woman.
Two conflicting emotions.
Three bad decisions.
Four unforgiving oceans.
Five fingers on each of her delicate hands.
Six footprints still lingering in the sand.
Seven tiny lines written on the note she left.
Eight puddles of tears I uncontrollably wept.
Nine reasons she gave for not being able to go on.
Ten hours of sheer anguish since she’s been gone.

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The Great Sacrifice

You are so good, Lord.
You saved us from all our sins
and the fires of hell.

You took up the cross
so that we may breathe again.
The great sacrifice.

They ridiculed You
while you hung there, innocent,
bearing our burdens.

Oh, what can we do
that would ever compensate
the price that You paid?

All we can do is
worship Your wonderful name.
It isn’t enough.

You deserve much more.
Jesus, our perfect Savior,
You are beautiful.

I want to live an
existence solely for You.
Teach me how to love.

Please release me from
my doubt when troubles hold me
and cloud my vision.

Help me to always
remember that You’ve risen
and have conquered death.

Guide me throughout life.
Help me to never forget
the great sacrifice.

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Run Out

Her chance is over.
The clock has run out.
She’s given in
to fear and doubt.

She’s a broken mirror.
She’s a page that’s torn.
She’s a walking mistake.
She wishes she hadn’t been born.

This cruel world won’t let her leave.
She’s tried to end her life,
but in that she can’t succeed.
The one thing she isn’t seeking
is the one thing she needs.

So here she’ll stay,
taking miserable breath
after miserable breath,
searching for,
but never finding,
the welcoming arms of Death.

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You and Me

The last time we spoke
I couldn’t help feeling
there was something special
between you and me,
but was then disappointed
upon realizing that
it was only the word “and.”

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Apology

Let me start by apologizing for hurting you,
and causing you to believe that what we had was something more.
My intention wasn’t to lead you on,
but that doesn’t change the fact that I left your heart torn.

You waited around for me while I was out making mistakes.
You watched my misguided pursuits with pain in your eyes.
You did everything in your power to show you loved me,
and in return I stepped all over your hopes until they died.

You deserve to be completely happy.
You deserve a human being who deeply cares.
I can’t take back the insensitive things I did,
but I hope these words will bring some repair.

You’re a much better person than I’ll ever be.
You’re beautiful, genuine, and intelligent, too.
Maybe if I hadn’t been such a fool,
I could have ended up marrying you.

I know God has someone special planned for you.
That’s why He didn’t let it work out between you and I.
When you finally meet the man you were meant for,
he’ll help you in forgetting the tears I made you cry.

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Sleeve

Should I pursue you
or let you run free?
I admit I’m interested,
but how do you feel about me?

Is what we share a love that could last,
or is this only you looking for a night on the town?
I don’t want to end up being just another guy
standing in line, waiting for you to turn me down.

You’re a beautiful person inside and out,
but it’s not like I couldn’t breathe without you.
That might make me sound callous,
but I’m only telling you the truth.

You’re a difficult one to read.
You don’t wear your emotions on your sleeve.
So please let me know before I get hurt.
Should I stay or should I leave?

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